Women in Recovery: Devan’s Story
Crystal Meth is known for it’s insidious nature, gripping its victims with an undeniable force. In light of current reports from The National Institute on Drug Abuse stating that women tend to begin methamphetamine use at an earlier age than men and also tend to become more dependent on the substance, we are continuing our “Women in Recovery” series featuring Infinite Recovery’s recovery specialist, Devan. This heart-warming story shares her inspiring journey on overcoming addiction, finding herself and her Higher Power through recovery, and reminding us that crystal meth addiction recovery is possible.
“I started using at a very young age. I didn’t understand the world, and felt like it didn’t understand me. I desperately wanted to feel connection, but felt like I was just too weird, or too broken. Once I found drugs and alcohol, I really didn’t care if I fit in or not anymore, which was amazing in the beginning.
My addiction started out with alcohol and marijuana, but very rapidly progressed to opiates and ecstasy, and by the time I was 22, I was shooting meth. A few years go by, and my life is crumbling around me, but at this point I really didn’t care about anything. I couldn’t see what I was doing to myself, or the people I loved. Meth became the love of my life. I would do literally anything and everything to stay sick.
Homelessness couldn’t stop me, the pain and fear in my family’s eyes couldn’t stop me, felony charges couldn’t stop me. Nothing could keep me away from meth. Until one day, I had a moment of clarity. I was dying… and I couldn’t stop myself from putting the poison in my body. I had a problem, and I needed help. I made a phone call to my mom begging for help, and went to treatment the next morning.
I hated it at first. All these people were smiling around me. I felt like I was on another planet. They were free. I wanted what they had. It wasn’t easy, and I almost gave up several times, but something kept me in my seat. I kept pushing through the pain and uncomfortability, no matter what. Recovery saved my life. It gave me the gift of a new beginning. Through the 12 steps for recovery, I have a connection to my Higher Power, and He reminds me everyday of how loved I really am. I get to show up for myself and my family. I get to look people in the eyes. I get to make mistakes, and not go out and use over it. It’s still not easy, but my Spirit has carried me through every single trial and tribulation.
I get to be one of those smiling faces. I’m free. I’m Devan, and I’m one grateful addict in recovery.”
– Devan Thrash, Recovery Advocate at Infinite Recovery and person in long-term recovery.
There are many more stories just like Devan’s, recovery is possible. Our drug and alcohol rehab in Austin, Texas treats all forms of the disease of addiction. If you or a loved one is struggling with opioid addiction or heroin addiction, get help now. Infinite Recovery offers a confidential hotline at (844) 206-9063 and our admissions team is available 24/7 online.